The letdowns come one after another
And at times together
As if one will not hurt enough.

And the tears
The tears keep falling
Like they are your silent screams.
 
The one who set this in motion
You trusted him
You know you’ll never forgive. 

It was a promise
You pinned your hopes on
It was a future
You knew you owned.

But it doesn’t happen
Like it’s supposed to
It came crashing down
Like a brick on you.

So for self-respect
You refuse to just take it
And for self-preservation
You choose to quit.

The surge of feelings
At the sight of you
Swirled around me
Like a personal tornado.

We are long over
Our past buried deep
But when our eyes meet
They remember to weep.

Don’t you dare come near me
When all you are is a tease 
You play with my emotions
When your love is a lease. 

Why must you chase my affection
Then promptly leave me out cold
You raise glass walls between us
Now that my heart to you is sold. 

I see you look at them
From a distance
For this is a time
When love means
Staying away
Letting the eyes speak
And the hands touch
Through the wind.
 
You heal the wounded
Yet the universe
Thinks its you
Who owes it
Making you pay
With hugs of loved ones
And at its most cruel
Your life.

Dedicated to a neonatologist who recently passed away from the virus, leaving a family with young kids behind. I didn’t personally know her but she left an indelible mark of courage, sacrifice, love.