The One That Got Away

I steal a glance at you sometimes
With eyes that still wonder why
A nod, a smile, a quick hello
Is all that's left of me and you

The jokes I throw at your expense
Come from the hurt deep within
You were once a devoted lover
Now a distant, wary stranger

Did I do something wrong?
Did you find someone new?
How could all your thoughtfulness
Abruptly turn into this mess?

So, thank you for that talk
Incidental it may have been
It's good to know you truly cared
And just did not know I also did. 


Second chances
Will not come into play
Between us this time.
We’ve crossed a line
That will never let us
Cross back.

Faith and respect
Can never be restored
The way they were last.
The betrayal was reeling –
Even time will not dare
Heal it. 

The bond we built
Has become a waste –
It shattered into pieces.
Our ties are cut completely
We might as well
Be strangers. 


Don’t you dare come near me
When all you are is a tease 
You play with my emotions
When your love is a lease. 

Why must you chase my affection
Then promptly leave me out cold
You raise glass walls between us
Now that my heart to you is sold. 


You seem to find power
In the silence of my thoughts.
You think you exude knowledge
In the thunder of your words.
But you must know, as I do –
Your talk is all fluff.
The stillness you hear
Is my mind picking that up.


Come see me by the lakeshore
On a beautiful Sunday afternoon
I’ll bring the new picnic blanket
I just bought from Amazon.
Come take your bike and hit the trail
But don’t forget some ice-cold beer
I’ll wait for you under the tree
I just claimed as ours today.
Come watch the waves roll in and out
And people stoked for a summer sun
Too bad you will never make it here
Figments of imagination never do.


What happened to you?
You were the sunshine
That lit up a room
You were the laughter
That couldn’t wait
To turn the sound on
You had the sharpest wit
The kindest heart
The sweetest love.
Now you wear a scowl
That spoils a happy mood
You shoot spite from those eyes
That used to only see
The best of me.
You have the loudest screams
The saddest sobs
The look of surrender.

What have I turned you into?

Prequel: The Knot


My emotions are running wild
I can’t seem to rein them in.
They just flow out my skin
Like lava when a volcano erupts.

I can see the smoke belching
Out my ears and out my nose.
My head aches like it’s on fire
And ready to explode.

My heart is contracting
It’s pumping black, not red.
I am so mad at you
And you don’t even know.